A couple of days ago, when I started this weight loss journey, I did something I have never done before. I took what I hope will be a "before" photograph. Wearing the B.W.G.Panties, of course. Wow, it was really a humiliating yet refreshing experience. I just never look at myself - what with getting up, attempting to apply makeup, driving Darling Husband and the Boy to their schools (DH has returned to college, The Boy is in Elementary school) and making it to work by nine.
I look in the face mirror of course, and then the glance in the Big Mirror in the Hall for the "is there toilet paper sticking to my shoe? Have I tucked my skirt into my panty hose?" but never a full on picture like that.
I can't look at it much. But I did it.
The other thing that's different is that I went to Dr. T, whom I see every single day in our small building. In times past when I was on a weight loss kick, I avoided letting anyone really know about it, especially at work, because then when I invariably fell off the diet, they would "know" and then I'd feel pressured.
So, two things different than times in the past: Pictures and Dr. T.
Plus, the substance abuse literature says that the more times a person attempts rehabilitation, the better their outcomes for success in the long term. If you think about that literature in terms of other habit change, it might very well apply to weight loss and eating habits. I suppose then that practice makes perfect. Or at least thinner.
But I still can't really bring myself to look at those pictures.
Oh and by the way - this mornings weight was 210.6. Go figure. That's about five pounds. Of course it's all water as I was the High Priestess of the Bathroom all day and evening yesterday. But hey, I'll take it.
One Woman's Quest to Lose Large and Ugly Panties Forever
I've had it with ugly panties that fit my large behind. I'm done with clothes for the large woman that just aren't as cute as the clothes I wore twenty years ago. I'm tired of wheezing as I go up the stairs. I've got sixty pounds to lose - because on my fiftieth birthday, I'm dancing naked in a thong, dammit. And it better be pretty. This little bunny rabbit is hopping me down the weight loss lane. I wanted a pair of big granny panties rolling through the grass, but I'm not computer savvy.
Woohoo! Congrats!
ReplyDeleteOh Jessica, you don't know how much your supportive comments mean! It makes the Quest of the Thong much less lonely. Thank you so much!
ReplyDeleteThanks for stopping by my blog-- loved your comment! I love your bold-faced honesty in taking a photo. I read something along the lines of "Only when we see and accept ourselves as we are can be really begin to change." I believe that! I look forward to following BWGP!
ReplyDeleteYour comments always make me feel reassured in my journey :)
ReplyDeleteAs for the start of yours..it's hard to look at the truth..I really honestly know how you feel. When i was at my biggest, back in middle school..I couldn't look at myself...but I did lose weight gradually..Now I'm trying to finish it off
I know you can do this, and I believe in you whole heartedly! I think that taking these pictures and seeing the doctor with definately help you out. New steps do help people out, and with weight loss, some of it is trial and error. You'll get the hang of it for sure!
Keep on swimming! And don't look at the granny panty photo too often, you want to be inspired, not beat yourself down. I'm proud of you!
ReplyDeleteThree things different - you started this blog!
ReplyDeleteMy blog was so super powerful in helping me achieve a goal. I just know yours will be a wonderful tool for you. It is so much fun to read and you make it so easy for others to connect with you.
Congrats on the weight loss!